s'en vouloir

Against one's will; reluctantly.

Oversensitive; easily affected emotionally.

At the same time; simultaneously.

Feeling comfortable, relaxed, or at ease.

With regret; reluctantly.

The action or fact of abandoning someone or something; abandonment (can be emotional).

Stunned, dumbfounded, greatly astonished or shocked.

A state of extreme dejection; despondency.

In low spirits; disheartened; dejected.

Causing moral revulsion; detestable.